I havent  been able to blog in so long that I wake up with this acute anxiety that I may not be alive. Some people think blogging is really stupid, and it might be. If I didn't post it here you can bet I'd have a pocket full of paper scraps with diagrams and words and experiences, so I don't forget my life. I've been so busy living it that I've not even had the chance to document it. I spent so much of my childhood being denied the validation of things being real and experiences being true that yes, some things I do have to write down.

Just to remember that they happened, and I enjoyed it.

Anyway last weekend I worked the Pike in Long Beach before the 2010 Grand Prix. This is the lovely Steph, my LA hair saint. Sorry Mickey, my hair is partly blonde, not green, you must be mistaken due to the GREEN bar lighting against a BLUE and white PBR wall. It's OK, I might have been confused also. It happens.

I found another pic from the Hayes Valley shoot with Ben Kasman back in Winter / Spring 2009. That was the last time I was fully blonde, but not the last time I was fully wasted. I'm sorry:

I kind of look like a Spanish soap actress on a lot of pills in this pic. I'm OK with that. I've been told I look Puerto Rican, too. And a great number of other things. It's too late at night for math. Work it out.

Then last Sunday I spent the day at Magic Mountain with my roommates Starr & Liz. It was an awesome end to an otherwise stressful and sorrow-laden week. Yes, we rode front row x2 on each ride, per ride. That's a lot more math. Basically, we skipped all the lines and spent 8 of 10 hours upside down and backwards. Love it.

Yesterday saw the passing of one of the greatest MCs of all time, if not THE best: Guru. Ironically it was one of the only days in the last 5-6 years that I have not listened to GangStarr. You cant fake your every-day agenda just because someone died. The music is in your soul or it is not. Live with that. You don't have to lie to kick it.

In addition to my job, I have been laden with Graduate School and the Sailor Jerry 2010 season. My Financial Reporting class is going as I would have imagined, it is pretty straight forward but good to know the technicalities of certain things. I cannot wait for my next class in June, which is something along the lines of Organizational Behavior.

Other than that... I'm chillin.

Peace and Love

and a little bit of hate.