Walking home from Gelson's yesterday, starin' at the Hollywood sign hanging above my street... I realized, fuck, I will miss this little section of my life. It hasn't been all bad but it's made me long for a lot of things, including getting back to what I am convinced is my "normal life." Back to my friends, back to the family I have here. Back to my heart. Though I must say my biggest fear is returning and having everything go back to the way it was.

But whatever it is, I cannot shake it from the "real life" that exists in my mind. Obviously, every day we live and breathe is real life. But... Living in Hollywood must be the next closest thing to living in Vegas - nothing feels real here.

But the contract ends and thus so does my time here. 

Bay Area, I'll see you by or before December 15.